(Cohen first day without me - heading to the babysitter's house.)
I survived my first week back at work. The first day went like this:
5:00AM - Jump on elliptical for 30 minutes
5:35AM - Get Cohen up (I cry) change his diaper (crying), put on his outfit (still crying)
5:40AM - Nurse Cohen (pull myself together)
6:10AM - Get Stu's lunch together (cry) and pack up diaper bag (crying hard)
6:20AM - Play with Cohen and kiss him like 100 times (Cohen starts crying from too many kisses)
6:30AM - Pull it together for 5 seconds before I start crying again as I kiss him and Stu goodbye.
After Stu and Cohen left I jumped in the shower to get ready for the rest of my day. My mind was everywhere. All I thought about was Cohen. Will he sleep enough? Will he eat enough? Will he get played with enough?
I put my clothes on for work, which I will admit it felt REALLY good to slip into my stiletto heels. Being a mom with a new baby...sexy is not a word I would use to describe how I felt for the past 10 weeks. For the first time in 10 weeks I felt sexy. No t-shirts...no pajama pants....no greasy hair hidden behind a ball cap....no baby spit up on my shirt. I hadn't worn heels in about 9 months so I about killed myself in them while blow drying my hair. I even thought I'm either going to die of a broken heart or death by a stiletto.
On the way to work I just cranked up the music in my car to keep my mind off Cohen and sang. Stevie Wonder - Superstition is what blared in my car.
Stu bought me a digital picture frame for my desk at work so as soon as I walked in I got it all set up so I could watch videos and picture slides of Cohen all day. I was insanely busy at work so my day went fast and I didn't have a lot of time to focus on missing Cohen.
Honestly being back at work felt great. I love Cohen & Stu more than anything, but I really love my career too and juggling both is gonna be an adventure.